When i grow up...

So recently i was assigned to write a lovely little thing called a 'career paper'
it was for my 'Intro into the English Major' class
and it was a whopper
five pages, single spaced
plus an educational timeline
seems always seem longer when they are single spaced.
i should have just typed it up to ten pages double spaced, then changed the formatting

anyways, it helped me to learn a lot about what i wanted to do
i mean, English Major, English Teaching major
being an English teacher has always been my generic little plan
but this helped me to see, there are options

people graduate with degrees in the Humanities department all the time, and go on to do crazy awesome things
one thing i would LOVE to do. i mean LOVE.
to work in the church office building.
i found a video on a girl, who works there, and writes articles for the Ensign.
she gets to interview the coolest people and then she gets paid to WRITE about it.
dream job.
right there.

i also learned about a ton of different minors that would be beneficial and that have classes that sound so insanely interesting.
i think i have landed on a communications minor, because that does some journalism stuff, and because all of the advertising and business classes involved seem interesting to me.
but i bounced back and forth between; business management, writing and rhetoric, and dance.
it was a bit of a whirlwind selection as you can tell :)

loveisourweapon

......

days, how they pass
and clocks how they tick
each second is just wasting away
like pieces of sand being pulled out to sea
the seconds pile into a day

and sandbars they grow
and ships how they wreck
into mounds of misunderstood time
seconds we've wasted and grains been misplaced
in this whirlwind of useless crime

we don't all steal diamonds
we've no need for the cash
that the hooded sneak off with in tow
but something more precious more worth of our anguish
are minutes wasted we chose not to grow

the choice that we make
when we decide to give in
to crash head first into such misused time
is committing ourselves to be less than we could
and preferring the bleak to sublime.

loveisourweapon

A bundle? a bundle of what?

Okay, so here i am brainstorming on what i can post these last several blogs about
and reading over and over again the blog requirement poster, waiting for inspiration to come
when i realized..
i do have a question.
a very good one.

what the heck is the deal with the freshman bundles??
i understand the concept that you are supposed to end up having several classes with the same group of people and get to know them or something?
byu's own personal way of forcing us to make friends with each other.
but my 'bundle' this semester was only this class?
and my 'bundle' next semester, is just an american heritage class?

so...what exactly is being bundled.
i haven't got any screaming letters from anyone telling me that i am being kicked out for doing this bundle thing wrong..
but i don't think that i am doing it right...
any ideas?

loveisourweapon

Uh oh..better pay my tithing.

If there is one thing i am a firm believer in, it is paying tithing!
it just rocks.
honestly.
when you pay your tithing, blessings just seem to stick to you like Velcro.
even the little ones, they just come running.

so i have always tried to be an avid tithing payer.
though lately, i have slacked off, MAJORLY.
embarrassing.
connected to that, my financial situation has been sucking, MAJORLY.

which is why i was so surprised, when today came with a plethora of good surprises.
First of all, i woke up, and went to an interview, where i got hired within five minutes for an AWESOME second job, that should take care of all the bills i have had trouble covering with my current measly 12 hours a week.

delivery driver.
YES.
then, i went to my other job, as a hostess, and received a $20 tip! just for doing a phone order!
This was recently followed by my sister texting me and telling me that she had $50 dollars for me, from my loving parents as part of my car insurance payment.
Which was followed by my boss giving me my paycheck!
...all of these HAPPY coincidences all also happened on....drumroll....the day my rent was due! so with a combination of all of these things, i somehow managed to pay my rent without going into any more debt than i already have.

my lucky day right?
After reviewing my bank accounts and realizing just how much debt i still had to work on, i also took a tally of how long it has been since i payed my tithing, counted up all my paycheck stubs since the last time i payed. and realized that, if i used the leftover cash that i had to pay my tithing, rather than to begin paying off my debt, i would have exactly four dollars until my next paycheck.

however, i am not one to mess with such blessings.
i mean come on..that is an extremely exceptional day right?
i can recognize a wake up call when it is waved in front of my face.
alright, alright, Point well taken. i'll pay it.

seriously can't get over how blessed i am though.
i mean, a wake up call made up of awesome blessings? seriously!?
haven't had this good of a day in a while.
i sure am loved by someone (:

loveisourweapon

Boom. Humbled.

So you know, oh, yesterday, when i posted the blog with the word 'Overwhelmed' in the title?
do you know what i think now?
i think i was being a baby.
yea, i am in school, and i am behind, and it kinda sucks.....a lot.

but that is nothing compared to the challenges that some people face.
i think, 'i don't know if i can do this' about attending BYU
i can't even imagine being this man.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znvTtWYWvtM

Okay so i tried to insert the video but i'm not exactly pro at blogging and i can't figure it out. His names is Carl B. Cook and he is telling a story of just after he was called to be in the Quorum of the 70, and how overwhelming the entire experience was. he speaks of an instant, as he stood in the elevator, staring at the ground, wondering how he could ever do this, when the Prophet himself stepped in to join him and asked him what he was looking at, and left him with the wise council, "It is better to look up".

i wont spoil the talk for you, but i definitely suggest you watch it, if you didn't catch it at this last conference, or if it was one that you let your eyes rest to (we all do it, it's okay to admit) it will be eight minutes well spent. Just copy and paste the above URL into your browser and it should come up.

sometimes we need to remember that even when we think we can no longer do it, there is always harder challenges, ahead us or behind, or that others are facing at the same time. and there are always reasons for the challenges we have, and that God knows us, and knows what is right for each and every one of us. Whether that means we need to struggle to succeed, or it means that we need to fail, God knows us, he always has, and he always will, and sometimes we need to learn to just let things go.

Mosiah 4:9-"Believe in God. Believe that he is. believe that he has all wisdom and all power. both in heaven and in earth."

loveisourweapon

Ello mate! Spoke to an Aussie lately?

In my ELANG 223 course we have been studying different English dialects
it is so interesting how many different ways there are to present the same language
i have a presentation tomorrow on a dialect of my choice, and i chose to do an Aussie accent!
they have some of the most interesting differences in the language over there.

they hardly pronounce any of the consonants that are central to the word.
for example, in the word 'hate' the 't' disappears completely as does the 'r' in the word 'bugger'

they say things like 'heaps' instead of 'totally' like...'That was heaps awesome mate!' instead of, 'that was totally awesome dude!'

they call tennis shoes 'runna's' and soda pop 'fizzy drinks'
and they neglect to say the A at the first of 'Australian', so it sounds like to them is starts with a 'U', that is, when they say the full word of course, mostly they just refer to themselves as 'Aussies'

They also think it is pretty ridiculous that we don't refer to the 'trunk' as a 'boot', a 'shopping cart' as a 'trolley' or a 'pepper' as a 'Capsicum'

Aussie's definitely have their own way of sayin things down unda!
You'd be a right bloke to say otherwise!

loveisourweapon

What do i want to do?..

Who in my class also had less than ten posts at the end of last week?
amazing how the assignments that aren't due until the end of the semester fall to the back of your mind, up until the last week of class, of course, when we all get frantic.

"Write down freely all the things you want to do in and with your life. be inclusive: let all your dreams and aspirations flow.."

That would be a very long post.
so i'll cover the basics.

if i could have anything in this world, i would have the opportunity to write something, read by thousands of people. whether it is a novel, articles in a newspaper, a poem..anything really. I have wanted to write novels as long as i can remember, and as big of a pipe dream as that is, i like to keep it alive in the back of my mind, just in case the opportunity to pursue it ever came up.

i want to travel, a lot...

See the great wall..

And the great city built on water..

i want to have a husband and a family, and go to the temple with them. i want to give them every opportunity that i possibly can, and raise them in this wonderful gospel.

I want to be a teacher, and teach high school kids as much as i can, and learn just as much from them. i want to be the type of teacher that kids remember, that leaves an impression not only on their academic standing, but on their life.

i want to learn how to play guitar (better) and learn to sing a little. i think having a little bit of musical ability in your blood is a good thing for everyone.

i want to give an insane amount of money to a really great charity, and never tell a soul about it. and i want to do twelve days of Christmas to someone who would really love it.

there are a million other things i want to do, these are just a few (:

loveisourweapon